July 2009 Discovered my health insurance would pay for Bariatic surgery. What a discovery! Once I had every detail written down...I mean names, dates, places, etc. I was ready to begin.
August 2009 Saw Dr. Soety for psychological evaluation. Not sure why I had to have this since clearly I know I'm fat and I want to take positive steps to remove this fat from my 5'5" frame. However, I saw her, answered all of the questions (383 of them) and passed with flying colors. She had just confirmed what I already KNEW! I am a thin person inside a fat body and I am ready to break out of this suffocating fat suit.
September 2009 Began my counseling with Dr. Shellenberger (required by insurance) and told her what I have been telling for a long time now...There is a thin person inside this fat body who wants OUT! And then it begins! Six months of keeping up with EVERY bite or nibble of food. Now being from the South I was raised on grits and greens. Love every mouthful of food I eat and I could see skinny Dr. Shellenberger's wheels turning in her smart brain...does she REALLY want to lose weight? She sure loves her food, this one. And she was correct. I LOVE food and as soon as I started this journey food became an obsession for me. I wanted everything I saw and felt deprived when I couldn't have it. Of course, as soon as I said I felt deprived my counseling took on a whole new meaning.
